Ran's Rants

Short Update

2011-09-14T19:13:00.002-04:00

How are you all doing!? Me? I'm just kinda bummed about my employment status. I am back at "Square 1". On the internet applying for jobs. When it comes to jobs, the internet needs to be regulated. These companies should at least honor your application with a response. You don't know if they'll ever get to you. But if you're one of their customers who's late on a payment they will not hesitate to contact you. SMH.

Not having a job is annoying. But I'm not giving up hope. I just don't see any signs of me giving hope up. I just have a feeling it will be alright, I don't know if I'm right, I just get good feelings. I know I can get something that wouldn't do my four whole years of college no justice, but I'm holding that off.

Until then I'm on the hunt. Looking for career fairs. I'm meeting with a temp agency tomorrow. I heard those things are kinda suspect. Guess I'll find out. Later. Oh yeah I'm gonna change this layout eventually. That shoudn't be too hard since all I gotta do is copy and paste. LOL (I don't steal)

What's Happening

2011-07-25T01:15:00.002-04:00

What's up y'all? How you doin'? Not to sound like a hater, but I hope y'all are behind on your blogs like me. I hope haven't missed anything. And I just wanna take the time out to say thank you to my readers.

Lately, I've been applying to jobs and chillin. Honestly I can say I'm tired of vacation. I know, crazy, right? Lol. Then when I'm working Imma be complainin'. My job search is finally making some progress I can say. I just had an interview this past Friday. I'm heading to a job fair on Tuesday, so I'll call it "Square 2".

The interview went well for me. I did my homework on the company, and the way I communicated about myself was clear. They said they'll let me know, so I'll just have to wait. I hope I get this job. It's in a great location; they have a proactive stance on hiring and training recent college graduates. It's great experience, possible to move up, and honestly the way I see it a generous opportunity.

Question: How do you deal with Stress?

They asked me that, and I said I don't get too emotional. I just try to get through the day, and then zone out in front of the TV. It's true, I just hope they believe me lol. Am I supposed to say I do yoga or something? I feel that's a trick question.

What I really wanted to say was: I don't treat people badly just because I'm in a bad mood. I whole heartily believe it's wrong to take your frustrations out on an innocent person. Damn. Had I said that, that would have been some major points! Oh well, my only mishap.

Oh By The Way... I Graduated!

2011-06-17T13:44:00.002-04:00

It's been a firm month since graduation lol, and longer than that since I've last blogged. Well first of all I'm gonna say I will miss the college life, and overall just the safety net of youth. It was nice while it lasted... That life will always be apart of me, especially considering my childish tendencies. It's over now.

My Graduation was great! I'm sorry, but I don't know why some people say the ceremony was boring. I'll agree the formalities are a bit over the top, but I enjoyed it. The bugs were such a pest though since it was outside...

Uh oh Story Time.

When I was a freshman, in my first ever seminar class, one of my favorite professors took my class on a field trip. It wasn't a real field trip. It was just a walk outside to where the graduation spot was going to be, when it was our time. I believe I knew the significance of that walk. I'll admit that I love of the "cheesy" moments in life, but, to me, that's what life's about. That walk was never really in my mind throughout my college, but seeing how I made it,

it's nice to look back on that memory.

As I was saying, graduation was lovely. The best part was my commencement speaker Liz Walker! She's a journalist, one of the first black anchors, she got a bunch of credentials, and blah, blah, blah. One interesting thing about her is she's a pastor, so instead of it being a normal speech, she preached up in that mutha! She spoke about how

Love changed the world.

It wasn't that normal type of Love were so accustomed to today. It was that type of Love Jesus gave. That crazy, Love your enemy type Love. Why? It's the same kind of Love that was exhibited during the Civil Rights Movement. Dr. King had to convince others to believe in. He got people with families and their own agendas to worry about to believe in his philosophy. Wow. Those people are a lot more courageous than I realize. Imagine what's it's like to be in the shoes of a protestor of that time. I believe some of their motivation may have came from wanting to make the future better for upcoming generations, but that's not all.

I believe their pride came from standing up for what they believe in.

The Civil Rights Movement was bound to happen, and without the leadership of Dr. King it could have went about in a different way. Liz pointed out this is one time using Love as weapon worked. I'm so glad she preached at our graduation! I will always remember that speech. I will always remember who my commencement speaker was. Regis actually got the right person for the job! lol I'm surprised.

Now I have my Bachelors Degree. I'm not that amped about it. It's nice to have, no lie, but I need the job. That's when I'll start to get excited. I don't have much experience in my life so I feel that I have to relive my teenage years I guess you can say. I might be bagging up groceries for 2 years. Oh God I hope not! I just wanna start my career. Getting that entry level job will help me determine where I want to put my focus.

Just Gonna Let It All Out

2011-04-08T02:15:00.002-04:00

No I don't have any real problems, even if I did I personally wouldn't blog about them. I usually keep the deep stuff to myself. Good or bad. Just cause I feel it's better this way. People discuss their... Everything, out on these social networking sites and subject themselves to the responses they receive. Not me. No thank you.

Whoo I just dropped some knowledge on y'all. For someone my age I just feel I have so much wisdom. I don't share that either unless someone asks me for my opinion. I'm no missionary. I just try to live life the best way can. Even though I feel I have so much wisdom, I will always refer to myself as being immature. I just feel I will always be a kid. I won't be mentally impaired, and think I'm really five. But I will always be subject to childish things and behaviors. Hey it's better than being an "adult" who still has it all confused.

I'm just blogging. Anything that just came to mind I just said. It's 3:26AM I'm just layin in bed and blogging on my iPod and listening to music. I need some new music. Just haven't been listening. Maybe I should just throw shit on my iPod like everybody else. It's just easier that way. By the way I got the Chris Brown Fame.

Like I really bought it.

I'm a fan of his music, but I feel myself becoming less of a fan lately. He's just becoming too high profile doing all types of wild shit. I heard about the GMA shit, and I just ask myself "Why?" What's so funny was I heard he ran out the GMA studio with his shirt off. Lmaoooo

Really... "Why?"

Tired now time for bed.

How long has it been?

2011-03-19T17:51:00.001-04:00

Hey everyone! Thanks for still coming to my site lol. It's ONLY been a month. It's cool though. I've been busy and when I wasn't busy I was chillin on my xbox and on my couch watching TV. Just got off spring break :( , now I'm back in school. SMH. Oh Shoutout to Tamara for saying she comes to my blog to listen to music :) that made me feel good.

My life has been the same old same old. I gotta find things to blog about. So I think I'll just talk about things I see on the news. I'll just try to find the funny things I see. I made this blog intended to get laughs, and to grow into a funny person. In real life I'm so serious. I don't talk much unless we have a close relationship as friends. Someone I can relate to. My own family, like the older people I can't really relate to, so I can never fully understand why people are amp to see their grandparents lol. I get happy for one day, but after that it kinda like

....Well that was nice, you can go home now.

I don't know yall lol. I'm sorry.

What's Up?

2011-02-07T04:00:00.001-05:00

Well the first thing I'm thinkin'
right now is I have class at 12:30 tomorrow, it's 2:31 AM right now, ... There's no way in hell I'm getting up for breakfast tomorrow. I really like breakfast at my school lol.

I've just been chillin' I haven't even really started any serious work in school yet. Plus there's a been a lot of snow days. At first it's cool, but after awhile it's kinda like

enough already!

I have a internship with my school as the marketing intern for Student Activities. I'm a little disappointed because I don't really get that real-world experience, but I'm trying to make the best of it. Trying to get students interested is tough!

They don't give a damn about shit.

For real. They got me doing the slave work too. The worst is hanging up, and taking down flyers. OMG!!!! Thank God the campus is small. It's thee worst. I feel like I'm gonna have a Dave Chappelle's "When Keepin' It Real Goes Wrong" moment down the line. One day I'm gonna be like Bitch, YOU go around and put up these motherfuckin' flyers lol it's bad. I figure... I have to do it, so that's all.

Valentine's day is in a week! I don't have a Valentine (Yet) I probably won't have one this year, just based on 22 years of experience, but

I'm still very hopeful.

I'm hopeful just because it's life, and you gotta be. Anything's possible. Who knows what will happen tomorrow.

Lol I am the Lovey-Dovey type. If I don't find a Valentine this year, I'll just walk around campus with a bunch of heart-shaped balloons. You remember that shit girls did in high school lmaoooo! Imma just be like "Yes, yes, she got this for me!!!!" I'll walk around with that "I love my haters attitude" lol

Just kidding, but that would be hella funny though.

Ok new Method

2011-01-20T00:36:00.002-05:00

What's going on people!? Yeah time for another update. Well first of all I'm going to address the situation of my blog. What I believe my problem is, it's I don't want to sit in front of the computer and blog. It's boring. So I'm gonna try this iPod thing. It's nice and comfortable. Jammin' to some music. I feel like Rev Run and how he types things on his little BlackBerry in the morning (You know the ending bathtub scene on Run's House.)

I wonder if he has ever drop his phone into the tub lmao.

Affiliates: I apologize if I didn't get to read any good updates yet.

Made some changes to the music. It's just what I'm feelin'. Especially that Ginuwine song. And just to let you know Ne-Yo puts in work at the studio.

In other news, school started. I know what I gotta do, so I'm not even gonna write about what I hope happens.

I'm just chillin with my people. People at this school is almost like family. Just some thing unique we have. It really hasn't hit me yet, but Imma miss 'em. By spring time I'm gonna be like

DAMN

Life goes on though. I could frequently look back, and remember the times. Sure I'll moments like that. It's just I'd rather keep my head up, looking towards a new horizon.

Don't Call It A Comeback

2010-12-27T20:31:00.006-05:00

What's up everybody! Finally I changed the layout. I didn't create or code this layout, I got it from Blogskins, I just tweaked it a bit. I just got inspired to blog again because of Duline. She really maintains her blog, and I'm impressed. I thought it might fall off by now. No hate though. It's only because she's not a computer geek, at least I don't think so. So I'm back but I've been on Twitter. Twitter is cool cause I can say what I want, when I want. Even though it's only 140 characters I can see the point. If I want more I can just post to TwitLonger or post another tweet immediately. Follow me, if I know you. I block followers I don't know.

What's happened so far? School ended. I'm so happy. I got a fresh start for my final spring semester as a undergrad. Remember when I was in an academic slump? Well here are my grades: Managerial Economics: B+ Business Ethics: B+ Seminar: B Sports Event Management: P Flim Class: W So what a P and a W? A P stands for Pass. That's how it literally shows up on my transcript. I'm not trying to hide if I got a C or D lol. I opted to take the class pass/fail because if you pass or fail the class it doesn't affect your GPA. I take a class pass/fail every semester, so I can chill and have less classes to really focus on, but I really wanted to protect my GPA this semester. This woman (the professor) was a coach as well, and her personality wasn't laid back at all. She was ready for work all the time.

I feel bad for anyone who gets involved with her.

Me, I came to her class late almost every time. Her class was at 9:30 in the morning. I told you she plays no games. I slept in class a few times, and I sit directly in the front of every class to prevent falling asleep lol. I sometimes came unprepared for class. I did alright otherwise, but I didn't want to risk getting a C or D. I also take classes pass or fail in hopes the professor gives me a C or D and thinks they got me lol. Sometimes I hope the professor comes up to me next semester like "You're a good kid Durand, but you just don't apply yourself. I hope that D you got will motivate you in the future." --I have an active imagination lol. It would be great to tell the professor I took your class pass/fail so...

HA HA

But I don't EVER tell the professor I'm taking the class pass/fail during the semester, so they don't grade me on harder scale. Lmaooooooo

I withdrew from the film class I was bragging about lol. Earlier I was bragging how I only had to watch movies and write a page of reflection on it, plus I didn't have to purchase a textbook for the class. Well I slacked off. I guess this was the academic slump I was concerned about. Here's what happened. Every week I had to watch a movie and write a page reflection on it due by Fridays. We didn't even have class on Fridays which I guess threw me off. Plus I can't be doing this shit every week. We had class every Monday and Wednesday, but she had a list of the movies we had to watch. Monday through Wednesday I'm not doing it. The plan was to do it on Thursday night. Then I realize the movie is like an hour and thirty minutes at least, and that's gonna take a long time. Then I realize it's not due until Friday at noon, so I say to myself I'll wake up in the morning and do it.

Nigga Please!

Then I read on moodle (the academic website) that the latest the assignments can be handed in is by Sunday. I worked on Fridays afternoons until eight, and I'm not tryna do afterwards. Saturday I worked from three to midnight, so that's a no. On Sunday I had other work related to my major to do. I just kept putting these assignments off. Eventually I convinced myself that I'll miss half the assignments, pass the tests, and do the other half. I failed the midterm test. I did not do the assignments, so I have a strong F. Seriously the only points I got in the class was the ones I got on the test. It was improbable that I was going to pass the class, so I took a W. At least it did not affect my GPA. My theory is I would like for the amount of work I'm about to do, to take me by surprise lol. The problem was I dreaded having to watch a whole movie.

Now I have a full load of five and a half courses to graduate. I'm not worried because one of those courses is an internship (there's go that attitude again lol). The professors I have for three of my classes are my two favorite professors in school. I have computer course, but I'm a little scared because the woman (professor) I'm taking it with is crazy... Me and her have history. She's the head of the computer department, and computer science was my major at one point. I use to sleep in her class, and she gave me my one and only D (but kudos to her because I was close to failing). We don't even say hi to each other. This should be interesting. I'm taking this course because it's the very basic introductory course in computers that computer majors could skip. This class probably teaches you how to turn it on lol. I'm talking basic. I have a gym class about Basketball. I love Basketball, but the professor is the head coach I use to work for as a Basketball team manager. His assistant coach and I had some disagreements, and I told him to eat a dick. Lmao. This should be interesting.

2010-11-08T17:33:00.002-05:00

DAMN It's been a month!? Since I last blogged. Well I'm putting a new theme on that will probably get me going again. Until then... Later.

Sorry Y'all

2010-10-09T00:37:00.004-04:00

Wow! I almost forgot about blogging, it's been in the back of my mind, and as soon as I got this opportunity I just had to jump on it.

Well... What's Up?

A lot's been going on lately. It's all been a blur, but I'll try to recall whats been happening.

Well first of all, TWO PEOPLE AT MY SCHOOL WERE STABBED AND ONE DIED. Yes, you've read that correctly. This is no joke. None of the students at my school were involved. They were all outside guests. It's so sad because of the essence of the incident, and on top of that all of the inner-city kids are recieving subliminal critizations. Well it isn't evident, but that's what I feel. I go to school in one of the richest suburbian towns in Massachusetts. A lot of students, including myself are from inner-city Boston. I bet a lot of people in the school think ever since it became open to boys for the 2007-2008 year, it went downhill, and they may think that's mostly because of the "hood culture" brought by the inner-city kids. Hell that's what I feel. If it were all suburban kids that went to this school, I think things would have been different. The same thing could have happened, but the chances of it happening? Be realistic... there's a reason why the crimes rates between inner-city and surburban areas are so different. The a reason why the same house in the two different areas are priced differently. I just I wanna be one to say inner-city kids aren't the same, but this is a disadvantage you have to accept early on in life. Some inner-city kids live up to the sterotype. My school hasn't been the same since the incident and I hate it.

I wasn't even supposed to go off on this subject. SMH

Anyway... lol. I've been really busy with school. I've been in an academic slump. I feel bad for slacking off. I'm slowly gaining speed, but I've never gone at speed this slow my whole college career, and it happens senior year. wow. Pray for me. Just been busy. Later...

First Week Of School

2010-09-13T02:05:00.003-04:00

Damn, why does it usually take me approximately 2 weeks to update my blog? I say I'm gonna try to update more often, but I guess not. This is a good time to update though. I'm waiting for my laundry to dry, I got my roomate's big studio headphones on just vibing to some music.

What am I going to address today? Well I completed my first week of school.

My first day of classes was on Tuesday September 7th. I'm a Management major with a minor in Economics. Well basically there's no assignments just yet, but tomorrow were in full effect. I'm just not ready yet. I should be used to this by now, like I'm a senior but...

Books Cost Money

Shit is expensive. I plan on ordering from Chegg.com (click). They're a great company for renting books. I save a lot of money. But since I'm ordering I gotta wait a couple of days for shipping and all that. Usually this would be no problem, but I got a quiz on the reading on Tuesday. If I can't get a hold of the book I'm just gonna bomb it. The Professor she will drop the lowest test grade, but I feel bad for using a ace in the hole so early.

This week I've been basically looking for a class to fill in. I needed to pick up one extra class this semester. I met with the senior class advisor and he got me on the right track. I would have been "very surprised" if I decided to stick with my plan lol. So I've been trying to find a nice easy class that I can take that end before 3 and leaves my Fridays free. Yeah I'm picky. I was gonna sign up for this Intro to Theather class. The professor is mad cool, and I did well in a previous class. My first instict is to sign up for it. Good move Right?

Wrong.

I had a look at the syllabus. The professor wants us to attend outside performances, and at the end do a research paper. One thing about me I HATE RESEARCH PAPERS The professor is mad cool, but it look like some actual academics were taking place over there. Can't have none of that. I haven't even been to the class yet and I'm dropping it lol.

I've decided to sign up for this Intro to Film Class. I think basically we watch film and write a response to it (about 250 words = 1 page). Maybe citing some technical things we'll learn from some text books. Only thing is we gotta watch the film on our own time. I figure this is better because this professor wants a response to material given to us; only for one page. I'm using words like think and maybe because my first meeting with the class tomorrow, or better yet a few hours laters. On that note... Later.

OMG It's been two weeks!?

2010-09-01T23:34:00.005-04:00

OMG has it really been two weeks since I've last blogged! This is crazy. I was planning to update sooner, but I guess I just I don't like updating at home. I feel I don't even have that much to say

We'll See...

Right now I'm listening to India.Arie - Video. My style of music has seriously changed. I've always like R&B, but I got more into it, and less into Rap. Yeah sure I can say what these rappers are saying isn't important, I can say that, but you got your Talibs and Mos Defs. I've really embraced by easy going side. I guess that means more easy-listening music. Now I'm really selective when it comes to rap. I'll listen to like the really current big names. Especially Drake, he's something special. Not too many rappers like him come too often.

Moving on...

I'm A Senior! (College)

Whoooooooo! Word. I'm happy, but I get that bitter after taste of fear, the fear of really growing up. All I can do is face it and look forward or I'll get caught up in the fear. I want that peice of paper.

My Got Damn Degree

When it's all said and done I would have completed four expensive, life-changing, wonderful years of college. I might snatch my degree from the person handing it to me lol. When I get a hold of that I'll be happy.

Other big news is that found a co-signer lol. I went off on my senior rant. I should said this first lol. I got a cousin to co-sign a loan for me. It's crazy how I've been able to find four loans to pay for school. Where in the hell did I find three co-signers?

Thank You God.

Now I wanna enjoy my last. Get these good grades. Enjoy the times with my people. I'm looking forward it.

How Was My Summer?

2010-08-18T22:55:00.008-04:00

Yeah... felt I needed to update. I'm should update more frequently, so I'll work on that.

What's there to talk about...

Well when school starts most people are gonna ask you "How was your summer?" We all usually say "Fine.", and we may mention something fun we did for the conversation's sake.

Honestly to tell the truth, my summer was wack. I had a lot of fun this summer, but it's been one financially dry summer. I had a lot of fun as an Orientation Leader. I'm so glad I got to be Orientation Leader again; the application process is kinda tough. As an Orientation Leader were representatives of Regis College. Were the role model students of the college. We a big part of the incoming students' orientation experience.

The reason I had so much fun as an Orientation Leader is because of the trainings and the perks. The trainings were so awesome we all just kinda bonded; learning things about each other. We played ice breakers. We made speeches about ourselves and presented them. We talked about our opinions on deep issues. We also did a skit. People complained about training, but I feel everyone liked them. The only hard part of training was practicing that skit, but everything else was just pure fun. Because I was an Orientation Leader I got to live on campus during the summer and it payed a hundred bucks.

I would have done this for free.

They fed us every training. We had two outings. One was to Six Flags, and we went bowling on the next outing. Wow!

Living on Campus is fun too. For one, when I don't wanna be home I come here. It's like my own place. My Orientation Leader friends are here, and we just have the best of times. Just those memorable moments you know. We play video games, play basketball with the boys, go out to eat, and recently a lot of us gang up to watch Jersey Shore. I had a lot of good moments with my good friend named Steven. Me and him stayed up until 6, 7, 8 in the morning playing video games on a few occasions. We ate Chinese Food late at night. Real Late. I remember being out in the front of Asia Wok or Tiki House waiting for our food. We doing stupid stuff like: laying down in the middle of the street because it was that late, and no cars were out. We did a lot of shit together lol.

No Homo.

Okay my summer has been a lot of fun. I lied. I just felt it was wack because I was so broke. Frequently asking mom for money... smh. I got some more to talk about, but I didn't realize writing about the Orientation Leader experience is certainly a post which will suffice. Now I got some ammo and I can update sooner. Later.

Feels Good To Be Back!

2010-08-05T22:37:00.006-04:00

What's up everybody!! First of all let me say I did not create this layout!! Cannot stress that enough. I give a great big kudos to whoever made this layout. There's a credit section down at the bottom. I personlly don't know who made this layout. I got it from BlogSkins.com

I used to dabble in Web Design. I was never as talented as the person who made this layouts, but I used to make photoshop designs and code it myself. I spent a lotta nights up in the wee hours of the morning. That may explain my sleep habits. I'm a former computer science major. The reason I left because I believe my success isn't in that field. I had a bad first impression because of the professor, and I just can't see myself up dumb late with a bunch of work involving codes.

So uhh... I'm retired.

I just tweaked the layout up a little bit.

This is my first post since June 25th 2009. Wow. And my last post has been about the late great Michael Jackson. I guess his death really had so distraught I just put my whole blog to a stop.... Nah. I just got really busy with not really too much going on.

AKA I Forgot

Just living life and chillin. Chillin is my word. Now I'm back. I want to consistently blog and affiliate myself with others who have blogs. I had a few affiliates before, but now I'm down to one. I gotta start almost all over again.

My Blog is like a bigger Twitter lol. Just a place to speak. It's not gonna be about nothing serious. No deaths, No deep updates. I just hope to get a couple laughs out ya by writing about my life.

Moving on to songs played on by blog. R&B is my style.

Anjulie - Crazy That Way
Trey Songz - Flatline
Alicia Keys - Why Do I Feel So Sad
Raven-Symoné - Some Call It Magic

I heard the Anjulie song on the show "What Chilli Wants". I had to get it immediately. I feel everyone is crazy in there own way. Trey Songz Flatline is just a flatout beautiful song. Listen to the lyrics. Alicia Keys' song is just so beautifully composed and the lyrics are beautiful as well. Don't worry I'm not on that emo stuff. I recently just added the Raven-Symoné song. She's my favorite celeb. There's not enough I can say about that woman. She's beautiful and carries herself nobly. I believe in Magic.

Saved the best for last. My people. I'm starting my blog again because some the people I know brought it back in style. Their blogs are very interesting. These are all "real life" people I met in college. All Boston! It's rare to know people in real life who blog. I hope they continue to blog often. Here they are. Check 'em out. (click the names)

Duline
Stacy
Wesley
Cynthia
Chardline
Francine

I'm also gonna have them as affiliates over to the left under Blog love as long as their blogs remain active.

The King of Pop... Gone

2009-06-25T21:42:00.000-04:00

Well, Michael Jackson is dead. He's... gone. I cannot fathom this thought right now. I just don't understand. How can he be dead? This is not right. The order of the universe is just all fucked up right now. There's something wrong with the world, and we need to pray and hope it gets back to normal.

The here's the messed up part... The world didn't stop!! Like the Earth keep spinning. The clock kept working. Jesus didn't making his second coming. People were still at work! People may have paused for a second, and played a few MJ songs, but is that is it? The Red Sox did not even stop the game to acknowledge him. Are you serious? The NBA Draft wasn't postponed! Are you serious!? Do they know who just died!? Michael Jackson affected EVERYONE on the planet earth in some positive way. He's dead, and the world turns a cold shoulder. This is nuts.

Fuck that, Michael Jackson is not dead. He never will die! He's just chillin with Elvis and Tupac where ever they are. AND YOU KNOW IT

Jury Duty

2009-06-09T02:05:00.000-04:00

OMG!! Jury duty sucks! Let me tell you what happened today! I'm living on campus for the summer, chillin, doing my orientation / part time job thing. I go home every weekend. This weekend when I went home I found out I had jury duty. I had to miss work because of this bullshit. I had to wake up dumb early to get there. The report time was at 8AM, like damn! I saw a schoolmate who had jury duty, so that was cool I guess. I was in a jury pool. They sit you in a room with many other people who don't wanna be there either, and you just sit there!! On top of that I had nothing on me for my entertainment. I'm just chillin. They presented a little video about jury duty, and then this judge came out and talked about the history of jury duty.

How boring!

I had to wait until a trial was selected, wait for all the proceedings just to be excused.

I wanted to be excused though; no doubt. I wrote on my questionaire "I can tell when someone is guilty just by looking at them." HAHA! The judge asked questions to see if anyone was biased. I told the judge I was biased because I don't know how the guy could find himself in such a postion, and that he's probably guilty. I can be someone who just looks at just the facts during a trial, but fuck that. Then I realized damn nobody wants to be here, that poor kid. He has his fate in the hands of 14 jurors who don't wanna be there. I'm sure that the jury will be make the right decision because they realize there's no more fighting it, but damn, is that what it comes down to? That's why I'm saying to my self and you all watch where you are. Don't be put in that position. Trial by jury isn't fair as it seems. Real eye-opener. That kid was a young african-american male, like me, and all I was trying to do was get out of there. I'm sorry, but I have things to do. I wish the best for the kid. My schoolmate made the final selection for the jury, good luck to her.

People already pay so much to live in this country, and now you want our time as well. No! They should make it an incentive to serve on a jury. People won't be biased, but their willingness to serve will highly increase.

Court is so boring!

Summer.

2009-05-25T03:31:00.000-04:00

YES! Finally summer. No more school. Clean semester for the fall. I'm living on campus for the summer because I'm an orientaion leader. I'm gonna get these new freshmen in! LOL. Living on campus is ehhh not all it's cracked up to be. There's no food!! I'm like gonna die. My orientation leader trainings are only once a week, so what am I doing? I'm working Mon-Fri. Only ten hours a week though! What else am I doing? NOTHING! I'm just going to come home for the weekends. The gym at school is open, so I plan on playing ball. I plan on playing ball when I come home for the weekends too.

My offcial grades: 3 A's 1 P and a C in that economics class. HELL YEAH! I did great this semester. I did better than I thought I would for economics. I did well on the final. I studied and got a really good grade. Whoo!

Lately

2009-05-10T20:00:00.000-04:00

Wow it has become so easy for me to forget to Blog. I really have to, so here's what's been going on.

I'm almost done with school! I was scared of how my grades will turn out, but it looks like I will be alright. I did well in three of my management classes. I "passed" a dance class (it will not have any effect on my GPA), and I think I got a bad grade in this one economics class. The story behind that economics class is crazy, and hopefully something good will happen with that grade.

I've already finshed one paper and one test. I have another test on Wednesday. Then That's IT! I will be a junior in college! Wow. Life is certainly going fast.

I wanna talk about some music! Drake is offically the greastest rapper alive. His flow is crazy! He may be signed under Wayne who proclaims to be the greatest, but it far from true.

There's a new up and coming R&B artist named Lee Carr. He just got signed to Jive Records He came to my school and performed. His songs are great. He's gonna blow the fuck up!

Chris Brown fucked up! I'm mad at him. He's the greatest male singer alive, and soon that may not be the case. In my eyes I thought T-Pain

Yes T-PAIN

was the second greatest male singer alive, but now I realize that's not the case. Ne-Yo is a hell of a singer, and songwriter. You ever just listen to Ne-Yo's words, and caught a hint of the holy ghost, and mutter to yourself a deep and satisfying

YES.

just like they do in church when the preacher touches on a point. It's wonderful!

Finally one of my final thought on myself: I am one of the world best writers. Yes, I said it. I have surpassed Shakespeare. If you're a college student then you may be able to relate to me. My reason for stating this fact of being one of the world's best writer's is because in college the professors are always assigning a paper! I hate papers with all of my heart! Yet I have to them; by a certain date I might add. Plus the professors can assign any dumb length they want, and the topic as well. Did Shakespeare have to deal with this much restrctions as a writer? NO! Professors assign really a long length on a topic that is a yes or no question! Ok I'm forcing it, but still the topics are usually stupid, and not worth five pages. Now I have to sit and think of content that will fill up five pages. I usually get it done too. (Not to jinx my self) My ability to write on prompt with many restrictions makes me one of the best writers of the world. Point-blank.

Happy Mother's Day!

Man!

2009-04-16T23:54:00.000-04:00

Life is getting crazy. For real. The school year is about to end. It's looks far away but it's really not. I hope I don't really start to acknowledge this fact when May hits. I'm kinda feeling anxious about the school year ending. I can't wait! I just want to get to vacation, and start working! Plus I wanna start fresh with another semester. Except I wanna finish this school year strong. The Itis is starting to hit. It's just usually that time when a students starts to feel overwhelmed with wotk. It's feels like I'm just kinda running out of gas.

Next school year I've decided to take on less responsibilities. No more E-board of clubs. It's just to much. If you don't check ya e-mails every minute of the day people will really start to think "Oh you're not dedicated to the club". I'm doing a lot of things around the school, and the e-board of the clubs just requires a lot.

So uhh... no.

I do have a few responsibilties such as Orientation Leader and Mentor to freshmen. I do need to do something around the school. I have a little problem in working with groups.

First of all in a group people just start to act all cool, and if you're gonna be cool then I'm gonna be cool! LOL. WTF you think this is!? Don't even tell me to change cause it's really not happening. I kind of adapt to the culture of the group. I also don't speak a lot. I'm not one to recap to be specific. For example here's a cornball's comment

"Oh yeah agree peace is a good thing because every is so peaceful, and I love peace"

Like... SHUT THE FUCK UP! Anybody in their right mind would say peace is wonderful. A simple

"I agree"

would bring me some peace! The cornballs usually try to point out the obvious, and start to formulate unessesary sentences. They don't even explain why they agree, it's just noise. I'm not a cornball. Anything I say usually brings up a new point. Next is groups are usually formed when one person can do all the work. Like a lotta groups in the world are formed, and their main mission is to solve the problem 1+1. So one person solves the shit, and looks like a fucking hero. While the other group members try to find something to do, so they don't look or feel useless. Next there are some people in the group who just get selfish with all the work, they just take it upon themselves to do everything before the other group members have a chance to respond. I'm not one to fight over shit like that because it makes me look like cornball. I'm here to really do this work modestly.

The left hand knows not what the right hand does. (something like that)

My whole take on it is: You wanna do the shit... here. One less fucking job for me.

So yeah I just went off! LOL. Those are usually my group problems. I'm not gonna be on the e-board of any clubs next year, and I'm going to show the advisors I can be a good worker. I'm going to clear the thought that I suck, and have people looking to me for leadership positions. That's my goal with the few responsibilities I have coming up. I'm just going to do the best I can, I'm not gonna do it for the people watching. This is for me mainly, but I hope people notice lol.

School. School. School.

2009-04-01T15:47:00.000-04:00

Well first of all in site news, I didn't realize a lot of you guys were having to sign in to a google account or something like that. Thanx so much for the comments! I know is hasn't been easy. I changed it, so people can just write their name and their site. I really wanna get back to your sites and comment. I would try to get back to their site, but there's none listed. I would try to go look on your profile, but they're private. Now everything is all clear.

Well it has definitely been a academic week. I had a test today! Exclaimation point? Does it represent happiness or anger? I'm happy. I fucking murdered it. I did a lot better than expected. Of course I sat my ass down on Tuesday and studied for a long time. Then I woke up in the morning. Studied a bit more. I hope I get a perfect score.

I have a 3 - 5 page (basically 3 pages lol) paper due tomorrow on "Is The American Mall dying?" Thank god some student asked to shorten the length because he may have assigned for it to be longered before. I didn't hear how much he said before because I walked in a little late. Like 9:35 when the class started at 9:30.

Plus I have a test tomorrow. FUCK! Mad work. I can't wait until Thursday is over. Then I can relax a bit. I'm trying to get on the grind for school right now. I gotta secure my grades, and just make sure I'm in my B- range. I have this one rediculous class. I hope I can do better in that one, but I'm not gonna kill myself over it. I'm pretty sure if it was a different instructor things would be way different. I just hope I can do well or semi-well. Do great in my other classes and absorb the losses from that one. Oh yeah I have this dance class I really don't care about. I'm taking it Pass/Fail. I could get a D- and it won't be recoreded on My GPA.

Pass/Fail is the greatest invention ever!

I'm a management major. I have 5 classes total this semster. I'm trying to cool my brain down for a bit. Eat. Do a paper. Attend an event. Study. Later!

Blog Well Overdue.

2009-03-25T00:15:00.000-04:00

Damn I haven't blogged in a long time. First of all I don't really have anything to say. I figured that I would just open the post page, and just freestyle it. I thought of that like a day ago. I'm slacking lol.

Ok well first of all I'm off spring break. I like being home, but I don't think I can there lol. I need to be on my own. I just feel things are a lot easier. I don't have to do chours, and I don't have my mom nagging me all the time. That's why I love being in my dorm. It's being on my own, and still having that connection to home.

School is getting crazy. I just hope I pass all of my classes, and keep my 2.7

Ran note: 2.7 is a B- hehe! Setting that goal leaves more room for errors, instead of a 3.0

I'm actually involved at my school. I'm trying to become an Orientation Leader. They assist with the orientation of incoming freshmen. I'm a mentor to like 15 freshmen. I'm on the E-board of two clubs. Manager of the basketball team (I wash the clothes and shit.) I'm gonna definitely slow down.

Speaking of being involved I'm the fashion show of my school's cultural enlightenment show. I was in it last year. I had fun. I'm not attempting to be a model. I'm just trying to have fun. The next three days will be long. I have practice 5-10 on Wednesday and Thursday. Friday is the show and rehearse again before it starts.

Then the fucking after party! I need a cut. Maybe even a new shirt. I pray it's not whack! My school has imposed new policies to ensure security. Before people could come with a regular ID, but now it's only college IDs. Only 200 people will be admitted. It used to be 350! Ticket will not be sold at the door! So people gotta come to the show to get their ticket. I think that's gonna hurt us because people just skipped the show and came to the party. Damn. I do not want this party to just to just have my the girls who go to my school. That's whack! I'm looking for the off campus hunnies lol. And dammit girls and boys alike have the damn problem of inviting niggas!

Girls invite niggas and niggas invite niggas. It's a vicious cycle and needs to end.

I'm sorry, but a lot of niggas make at a party make the party whack. I'm not biased, it's true. Ladies first think they might want lot of niggas there, but think about it.

They're not dancing with your ass.

They wanna stand in the back with their niggas.

Well that's my blog for today. Lesson: Stop inviting gay niggas aka "thug niggas" to parties. In fact they're the reason why the policy changed! Damn.

Clannad episode 1

2009-03-14T03:43:00.000-04:00

Here's the first episode of a new anime series I'm watching.

Click Here For First Episode of Clannad

Spring break is almost over. My teacher gave us homework. Can you believe it!? So mad. I have a long sunday night ahead of me lol. That's slacking for ya!

Grand Opening!

2009-03-11T02:24:00.000-04:00

WELCOME (that's me to the left)! Hey what's up everyone my name is Durand, nickname Ran. I got info about myself over to the right which basically states I'm a cool ass dude, so no more needs to be said.

You're probably thinking already "he's cool" huh?.

Here's the story of this blog. I'm 20 now, and back in the day (starting at age 14) I used to 'dabble' in web design. I had sites and did some designs (they weren't great). I learned a lot about computers and myself, so I'm thankful for those experiences. I decided soon enough that this wasn't for me though. Too many codes, and I'm not really "artistic" (I am creative though; figure that out). About a day ago, I realized I'm bored. I went on a couple of sites, and before I knew it I came across a fellow "blogger's" website. It's on blogspot, and she made her site look so nice. I figured I can have a nice looking blog, some music, more importantly a place to speak. Just yesterday I opened my own account, applied a template (this isn't my design, I'm retired), tinkered around to add some music and figure out the look (still in process), and her you have it! My blog. Hasn't been easy; definitely needed to rely on some past HTML knowledge, but I'm excited about it. Really I'm interested; I have the time since I'm on spring break, so why not?

This blog is gonna be used for speaking on casual things. I really think the serious issue should be held to ourselves instead of putting it all out there on AIM, Myspace, Facebook, etc.

It makes me wonder "how serious are your thoughts, dreams, etc.?"

Not hating on anyone though. I've put some things in my statuses, and I just thought it was pointless. Anyway this blog is about my experiences, pictures, music, friends, etc. I may post some anime on here. Like the first episode of an anime series just to draw you in because anime is very cool (to me anyways) and inspirational. I mean I was just completely drawn in, I even have some Japanese music on my ipod lol. I'll post some new music I find, like for example the song that's playing. It is pure caine (cocaine!). I'll stay away from the Japanese music here, I don't wanna scare people away lol. This blog can get serious about current events; not about me. I'm pretty private I guess.

10 Facts

I'm of Jamaican heritage (born in US)
Live in Boston (Mattapan!)
Is A Lakers Fan
Favorite Movie Beauty and The Beast
Libra
Wear's a Red Sox fitted everytime
Own's a heart necklace
Is Handsome (hehe)
Loves Basketball
Falls asleep a lot

1 Extra

I'm Straight!

Don't let some shit mislead you. Heart necklace, Beauty and the Beast, ran-hearts is really suspect lol. I value my manhood too. I can't stand dudes that act like bitches.

Edited by Ran: March 11, 2009. (Yeah I peeped that shit!)